Ten Years

Ten Years

Glad Birthday Meals and Miles!

This month marks TEN YEARS since I began scripting this little weblog. (Which isn’t little or no – it’s truly over 60GB!) Whereas I do know I’ve been taking a little bit of running a blog sabbatical this yr, this weblog continues to be my child and can ceaselessly be my child – I can’t give up you, Blue!  I’ve made numerous errors since writing my first weblog submit, discovered a ton, had some loopy adventures, made unimaginable buddies, and hopefully perhaps even made a distinction in some peoples lives within the course of.  It’s been a hell of experience and I need to thank everybody who’s been part of it alongside the best way!

In honor of my blogiversary I’ve compiled an inventory of my Prime 10 Meals and Miles posts. These posts symbolize a mixture of pivotal moments in my writing, in addition to my life. It was enjoyable to take a stroll down reminiscence lane with these. It’s loopy how a lot life can change in ten years and I wouldn’t change a minute of it.

10 /// January 18, 2009 /// Hurricane Overload ///

I went by means of a reasonably robust breakup proper earlier than I began my weblog in September 2008. For the primary few months I used to be very single and never even courting. Then, that December, I wrote my New Yr’s Eve submit and made a decision about eager to go on precise dates in 2009. Properly, typically it’s loopy how life works out. Whereas this wasn’t Derek’s official weblog debut (technically we had reconnected again in November at an FSU homecoming recreation) that is when he turned a daily determine. I really like this weblog submit as a result of that night time is filled with so many fantastic reminiscences. It was our first “unofficial” date on this new journey and we had no concept it was main us to an entire new life collectively. So younger. So free. So prepared for love. This was the night time we turned us in a method.

In fact, running a blog and courting is difficult. Over the subsequent few months I used to be publicly writing about our adventures collectively all of the whereas merely calling Derek my “friend.” I acquired so many messages from individuals making an attempt to determine our relationship that it virtually turned a operating joke even with one website referring to Derek because the “Easter Bunny.” The reality is I wasn’t sharing something as a result of WE didn’t even know what to name ourselves. We have been taking it sluggish and seems shifting at our personal tempo labored simply high-quality.

A few enjoyable information from that night time that will not have made it on the weblog: 1. We met this older couple that night time who stored telling us we have been going to get married (we stored telling them we have been JUST associates), nicely seems that they had a wanting glass we missed as a result of right here we’re 5.5 yrs as husband and spouse. 2. I obtained actually, actually drunk and ended up puking in a trash can at Metropolis Stroll. Derek drove me residence and was ever the gentleman sleeping on the sofa that night time. three. My mother and father unexpectedly confirmed up at my condo the subsequent morning at 9am. Derek was nonetheless there and I used to be actually hungover. It was tremendous awkward and one thing we don’t snort about almost sufficient. four. My contact image in Derek’s telephone is from this night time. It makes me smile each time I see it.

9 /// August 15, 2009 /// Wholesome Dwelling Summit 2009 ///

The primary Wholesome Dwelling Summit was each an entire mess and doubtless one of many coolest issues I’ve ever been part of. The entire convention began as an e mail. Tina despatched an e-mail to a gaggle of us asking if we have been attending BlogHer that yr. The consensus was that it was too costly, so why not create our personal? So we did. Our aim was to convey all of our running a blog pals collectively in a cool metropolis and perhaps study a factor or two within the course of. We had completely no concept what we have been doing. I hadn’t even been running a blog for a yr on the time, however someway I used to be grouped up with this superb, unimaginable group of girls who have been just about running a blog superstars on the time (and nonetheless are!).

We deliberate every little thing by way of emails. Set-up registration by way of PayPal (the place we crashed the system and bought out virtually instantly). By some means acquired some manufacturers to sponsor us. And principally created a weekend we thought sounded enjoyable. The whole lot was executed on a teeny-tiny finances, however we one way or the other made it work. There ended up being 5 HLSs in complete. I took over nearly all of the HLS planning in 2011 after which utterly handed over the reigns once I re-entered the company world in 2013. I discovered SO MUCH planning HLS through the years and am so grateful for the experiences it gave me. On one other notice, behind the scenes everybody tried to make the unique 6 of us into this loopy, aggressive group who secretly hated one another, however the fact is we turned actually nice buddies within the course of and it bonded us for years to return. We nonetheless all speak semi-regularly they usually’re the primary ones I often run to for giant life occasions. Hell, the group (which has grown in the previous few years) despatched me a Starbucks present card once I began at IM in 2013 they usually have been the one ones I informed about my first being pregnant in 2014 (actually sending faint footage of the primary check earlier than even my husband knew) they usually have been additionally there once I misplaced the being pregnant and despatched the most important bouquet of flowers. These women are lovely on each the in and out and I’m so grateful HLS introduced us collectively.

eight /// October 5, 2010 /// My Response ///

I used to be at Disney with my sister once I first heard the Marie Claire article was out. We knew it was coming, however it wasn’t till I began receiving bizarre messages from individuals defending me over this text that I knew it had been revealed. Somebody had emailed a PDF to the group and my sister and I learn it on the bus again to our automobiles. On the time, I used to be livid. This individual had taken all the things my associates and I did method out of context and turned us into these loopy, ravenous individuals who promoted consuming issues. Anybody who knew us, knew this was false. Anybody who learn our blogs, knew this wasn’t our message in any respect. I waited and let the whole lot sink in earlier than writing my rebuttal the subsequent morning. I made a decision to go together with the reality and revealed all the emails and solutions I offered the reporter. I defended my buddies and myself.

The help that got here afterwards was one of the crucial unimaginable occasions I’ve ever skilled. Individuals rallied behind us and led an assault on Marie Claire. Different retailers picked up the backlash and I watched as my weblog visitors soared over the subsequent few days. My response to the article stays one of many highest trafficked posts on my weblog. Years later, the harm and anger over what was written stays, however I assume all press is sweet press? The reality is, my visitors remained excessive after the article was written. Seems the article escalated the recognition of my weblog and individuals who discovered it via that craziness stored coming again – perhaps they stayed once they realized I wasn’t that loopy?

A number of months after the article got here out I left my company job and pursued running a blog/ freelance full time. On the time, I used to be making extra money from advert income on my weblog than at my full time company job – thanks, Marie Claire. I re-read the article each on occasion and it’s truthfully extra ridiculous now than it was then. I even despatched it to some co-workers just lately they usually cracked up studying it. Even they might see how blown up every part was. In fact, with the world of influencers we have now now… what they wrote about us appears so low scale.

7 /// March 5, 2011 /// My Life is an Open Guide. Time to Flip the Web page! ///

I had simply moved to Orlando once I began my weblog. I used to be younger, single, and dwelling alone in a one bed room condominium in a brand new metropolis that I shortly fell in love with. Earlier than shifting to Orlando I used to be in a bizarre place and wanted a recent begin someplace, anyplace, and that’s precisely what I acquired. I made superb new buddies, went on some fairly cool adventures, and ate at some scrumptious eating places. Orlando virtually turned a secondary character on my weblog and dwelling there turned a part of my id and what lots of people related me with. Then I fell in love with this man who lived throughout the state. After 2 years of doing the long-distance factor, we reached some extent the place one in every of us needed to take a leap. My weblog had exploded on the time and I had this chance to take it full time, granting me the pliability to make an enormous transfer. So I did. Leaving Orlando was one of many hardest issues I needed to do. I liked that metropolis a lot. It’s primarily the place I grew up and found who the actual me was. I cried leaving there, however I additionally knew I wanted to take this subsequent leap.

Sure, I turned the cliché of a woman who moved for a boy, however I’ve by no means as soon as – ever – regretted that call. Seems Tampa was fairly superior, too. It took me some time to determine this metropolis out, however as soon as I did – oh, man – I fell deeply in love with this metropolis, too. The individuals, the tradition, the life I’ve constructed right here is all fairly superb. I owe a lot to this lovely metropolis of mine. That is the place Derek and I made our residence. That is the place we welcomed our daughter into the world. Seems shifting to Tampa was one of many smartest strikes I ever made.

6 /// Might 20, 2012 /// Streak the Cove 5K ///

I signed up for this race in secret. I had been served advertisements for it for some time and eventually determined “why not?” and submitted my registration. I assumed it was going to be this foolish race I might do and everybody might have an enormous chuckle about it later. It ended up being a lot extra. Whereas most individuals consider racing within the buff can be intimidating, it’s truly actually inspirational and liberating. One thing about having all these individuals in all styles and sizes, utterly bare, put us all on a fair enjoying subject. Everybody was so matter-of-fact and assured with no garments, it was onerous to not be the identical. I’ve truthfully by no means felt extra assured in my physique than at this race. A number of pals have run this race since I’ve, however I declined the invitations to hitch them. I stand by my unique concept that I’d solely do that race once more if I knew nobody else. There’s one thing about being bare round a couple of hundred strangers that doesn’t hassle me as a lot as being bare with anybody I do know in actual life. With that being stated, I might nonetheless run this race once more, and am truthfully unsure why I haven’t.

The bare race comes up randomly now and again. It got here up once I was in Seattle the opposite month when somebody talked about it as a loopy factor I did as soon as. Then the dialog moved on to the submit the place I reviewed a vibrator for Trojan. Ha. You’ll be able to undoubtedly say I by no means held something again on my weblog. I beloved pushing the boundaries, and type of miss my willingness to take action. As soon as boards developed with the only function of attacking the whole lot I wrote about, I turned much more sheltered in my writing and quite a bit much less daring with placing myself on the market. It merely wasn’t value crushing my soul for. But when you understand me in actual life, you understand that nothing a lot has modified with my openness or loopy antics. I’ll all the time be the woman who ran the bare 5k and I’m pleased with that.

5 /// January 6, 2013 /// Husband and Spouse ///

I do know I’m somewhat bias, however our wedding ceremony day was fairly superior. It wasn’t fancy by any means, nor was it good, however it was precisely what we needed and so completely us. From the minute Derek proposed, I couldn’t wait to start out planning our huge day. I dove head first into the world of wedding ceremony planning and wedding ceremony blogs and acquired fairly into it. It’s humorous how on the time each little element feels so essential, and we’re all so deep into the unreality of wedding ceremony blogs that we overlook it’s actually not. I used to be fortunate to primarily flip wedding ceremony planning into my fulltime job. Within the yr main as much as our huge day, I obsessively blogged about each element and was capable of dedicate a whole lot of time to DIY parts I wouldn’t have in any other case. I liked it. My weblog turned very wedding ceremony targeted – and I do know not everybody was a fan – however that was an enormous a part of my life on the time and my weblog was all the time about my life.

My wedding ceremony posts nonetheless obtain a bit little bit of visitors and the submit that includes my wedding ceremony script stays the preferred. Even when I simply wrote all of it for me, it’s nonetheless enjoyable to have one thing to point out Annalynn at some point. I assumed I might stay on the marriage weblog scene after creating a little bit of a ardour for planning, however as quickly as the large day was over – and that stage of my life was over – my pursuits moved on. It was a ton of enjoyable going via it, however when you’re not going via it – or considering someday you’ll – it’s not as fascinating and I completely get that now. Again to the precise wedding ceremony day…I might change nothing. Okay, perhaps the typos on the desk numbers, however truthfully who cares. It’s a humorous joke we will inform and giggle about. Oh, perhaps I might have simply given up on assigned seats – not well worth the drama there. And I might have stocked the bar with higher beer. The great things went means too quick. My favourite elements stay sealing our vows with a pinky promise, the gorgeous purple velvet cake my uncle made, the dancing, seeing my pals’ response when the bottle of Jack Daniel’s received handed round, and attending to name Derek my husband for the primary time.

four /// Nov 5, 2013 /// Ironman Florida 2013 Race Recap ///

In all probability one of many craziest issues I’ve ever accomplished was registering for IMFL. I blame my brother. It was his loopy concept to drive as much as Panama Metropolis the yr earlier than to volunteer and register. I completely took his lead right here. I imply, if he might do it – why couldn’t Kelly & I do it, too? So we registered and not using a freaking clue what we have been getting ourselves into. I look again at that yr of IM coaching and I nonetheless do not know how we did it. That was the identical yr I acquired married, re-entered the company world with a job that required a whole lot of touring (coincidentally for IM), and my husband determined to take a sabbatical from his job. It was traumatic, however one way or the other (once more, I do not know how) I slot in hrs & hrs of coaching. What’s loopy is, regardless of spending 10+ hrs coaching on the weekends and committing to two-a-days in the course of the week, I might nonetheless think about my coaching “light”.

Race day went higher than I might have ever imagined. The circumstances have been spot-on and I might really feel the help from the world over pushing me past any of my anticipated time objectives. I completed 2 hrs earlier than I used to be anticipated to, which nonetheless blows my thoughts. In fact, as a result of the race day went so nicely I’ve zero want to do one other one. It was too good, why wreck that lovely reminiscence?! This race was just about the height of my racing profession. It was my final bucket record merchandise earlier than we began making an attempt to have a child and after that racing and coaching simply fell to the underside of the precedence record. I yearn for the motivation and want that received me to that end line every morning whereas I wrestle to suit three mi in earlier than work. Will I ever be that dedicated individual once more? I’m unsure. Perhaps. At some point.

An replace on the #IronSiblings… Ben went on to race one other 70.three a yr later, however briefly retired from the game to concentrate on work and beginning his household. He lately registered for his first race (a ½ marathon) because the 70.three. Kelly had Owen virtually precisely 10 months after ending. She’s been kicking butt recently, operating repeatedly together with her boys and the double jogging stroller.

three /// August 24, 2014 /// The M-Phrase ///

Whereas this submit was probably the most painful ones I’ve written, it’s additionally the one I’m most pleased with. We stored the being pregnant so guarded at first, not even telling our households the information. I had this unusual want to not need to rejoice it, perhaps as a result of I knew deep inside one thing wasn’t proper and that it might all be momentary. Then there was the blood, the ultrasound, the insufferable silence the place there ought to have been a heartbeat, the tears, and the ache that ate me up afterwards. As quickly as we left the physician’s workplace, I needed to let somebody – everybody – know what occurred. I needed to take this burden away from myself and know that I wasn’t alone. So I wrote. With a tear stained keyboard, I let all of it out as a result of I didn’t need to overlook a second of it. I didn’t need to overlook that this life existed or how harm I used to be. I wrote for myself, however I understand now it was a lot greater than that. I needed to provide this expertise a voice as a result of although I felt so alone in that second, I hoped that at some point another person going by way of the identical loss wouldn’t really feel alone. They might comprehend it’s not their fault, that 1 in four ladies will expertise a miscarriage of their lifetime and it’s okay to be unhappy about it. It’s okay to mourn the loss.

To this present day, I nonetheless mourn the loss. Heck, my eyes are even beginning to tear up as I write this. It’s a ache that sadly doesn’t go away. After I shared my story, my inbox was flooded with ladies who had comparable experiences. Buddies I by no means knew had suffered, have been sharing their very own tales of pleasure and loss. I nonetheless obtain personal messages from ladies who keep in mind studying my publish and have since skilled a loss. My coronary heart aches for them. It’s a membership nobody needs to be part of, however figuring out you’re not alone is so highly effective. I used to be in a haze the subsequent few months, obsessive about getting pregnant and wanting so desperately to maneuver on. 2014 was a tough yr and I wouldn’t want any of it on anybody.

2 /// Oct 7, 2015 /// Annalynn’s Start Story ///

I knew from the start that I used to be going to have a csection. With the form of my uterus there was a excessive probability Annalynn can be breech because of the constraint of area and lack of ability to show. It’s additionally why I had so many ultrasounds. Constraint area might result in constraint progress. Fortunately her progress was proper on monitor, however she stayed sideways the complete time. Once we scheduled the csection I noticed there wasn’t a number of info on the market on what to anticipate. I had learn a couple of birthstories with emergency csections, however even these missed plenty of information when it got here to the method. Scheduled csections have been these taboo issues that not a number of ladies shared about because of the unfavourable stigma society had positioned round them. Belief me, it was not a part of my unique plan nevertheless it was what I ended up with. So I shared all the small print I might. I needed to be as clear and informative as I might. I used to be grateful to have an unimaginable physician who practiced mild csections. Annalynn was positioned on my chest virtually instantly and by no means left my aspect throughout our keep. Restoration was comparatively straightforward, however I feel that’s the distinction between a scheduled and an emergency csection – I by no means had the chance to labor so there wasn’t that further stress on my physique. I do yearn for the chance to expertise labor at some point, even when I nonetheless finally find yourself with one other csection.

In fact, the delivery of my daughter was a pivotal second for the weblog. My priorities modified, my passions shifted, and all that mattered was being a mother to this lovely little woman. It’s a bizarre stability I’m nonetheless making an attempt to determine. I’m nonetheless me, however I’m additionally mother. I wrote quite a bit about restoration, physique picture, and breastfeeding at first. Perhaps slightly an excessive amount of about breastfeeding, nevertheless it actually did take over my life – it was arduous to not write about it when each little factor I did concerned it one way or the other. I’ve no regrets with what I wrote as a result of a variety of these posts are those I nonetheless obtain probably the most suggestions on. It’s not straightforward, nothing about parenting is straightforward. Don’t ever let anybody inform you in any other case.

1 /// January 15, 2017 /// 2017 Walt Disney World Marathon Race Recap ///

Writing about coaching and racing has all the time been a central focus of my weblog. It was an enormous a part of my life for therefore lengthy and a serious ardour of mine. I used to be decided to be a type of mothers who instantly jumped again into operating and understanding after having a child. I swear everybody I adopted have been miraculously quicker after giving delivery, prefer it was this new mother tremendous energy or one thing. That wasn’t me. Whereas I nonetheless beloved to run and actually loved taking my jogging stroller out, I simply didn’t have that want or motivation to push myself like I as soon as had. I used to be sluggish and felt out of practice. I assumed having a aim may change that, so when Annalynn was 6 months previous I registered for a marathon. It was nonetheless eight months away, I had loads of time to coach and get my motivation again, proper? Ha.

Whereas this race will all the time be the one I’m most pleased with for sticking with, it undoubtedly got here with loads of classes. Like races and end strains don’t encourage me as a lot as they as soon as did. That pinning an entire race on this image good end line second will solely crush your soul when it doesn’t occur. That perhaps the important thing to my sanity is realizing it’s okay to not bounce again and also you don’t should run eight min/mi. Typically it’s okay simply to run to run. Plenty of perspective got here from that race and I’m grateful for it. I don’t know if I’ll ever run a marathon once more (perhaps?), however I’m glad I ran this one, as a result of if I hadn’t, there would nonetheless be this clinging cloud of what ifs. I actually do miss coaching, racing, and beating objectives, however I can even miss one thing and be completely okay with taking a break from it.